Is Monday and 2 more days to Lunar New Year . Well, I gave Boyf attitude again yesterday and seriously I don't mean it >< Is it because I felt unsure that's why I'm a bit paranoid ? I guess so .

Early in the morning, Boyf's mummy gave me bread for my breakfast . That's so sweet of her, isn't ? I love her, she is a cute and good mummy =)

Is raining again and I feel so reluctant to work . But I think even it is not raining, I would be feeling the same also .

I'm eyeing on the Samsung Dual Camera, it cost 449 bucks . Shall I or not ? Argh but Jeffrey said this is not my priority . I shouldn't get it . I understand him, as long as it is related to money $$, he is not gonna allow me . But, I know his concern to me =)

I still remember . . .



I force Boyf to hug it as he always throw it far far away -.-

Good morning !
Is Friday ! Ohmy ! Finally god answer my prayers !! ><
Accompanied Adeline Darling, Martin and Boyf to Jian Dao Jian for their supper, I didn't even touch a single bite . xpp Good right =)

Left Boyf this morning and again I felt so reluctant to leave . Lol ! I just simply loves his smell so much =D After I reached my office, I started to drink the milk powder as usual . Afterwhich, I had another cup of plain water but I guess I have drank too much water until I went to the ladies and vomitted -.-'' See, later Boyf sure say I don't know how to take care of myself . Lol !

Boyf is working in the afternoon shift tomorrow but too bad, his Girlf me have to do my nails tomorrow morning thus I can't accompany him till he wake up lerh =/ Anyway, We got plenty of time during LNY .


I can feel we are getting closer and closer but as long as you don't make me angry, I will be sweet and lovely to you . When I look at YOU, I just feel like hugging you tight and kiss you real hard . I feel that I'm getting more and more easy on you . I'm much more easy to coax compare than before . Don't you agree ? Baobei, I love you . Muacks !

This is the bear which Boyf caught for me in the toy machine . Kaiwaii neh ~

Imma really a complicated girl . I knew I love Boyf deep deep but I choose to deny all my feeling . I choose to against it and make myself so suffering, not only me . Even to Boyf . Is it because I was been hurt before that's why i'm hesitate to move forward and commit ? I really don't know . I only know I forced myself to keep a distance from Boyf though I know I can be more sweet than that . I know I could be able to do more than now but i choose not to . The more I commit, the more I fall into him . Can I really commit in this relationship and stick with him ? I wish I could but I'm afraid he can't manage to . . .

Sighs !

Well well well . I'm showing Boyf my attitude again . I don't know why I just loves to talk back to him and loves to play hard with him . I likes the way he coax me, loves it when he hugs me and says I am the one he most love and will hold on me till the end .

Yesterday, he used 10 bucks to catch a bearbear for me . LOL ! Imma happy but he is just too haolian larh . Cannot praise him derh, once you praise him, he will fly up to the sky . Cannot stop praising himself how good he is . LOL ! Superb thick skin .

Three months gone and the fourth is approaching soon . My love has increase out of my control, I just feel happy to see him, smell him and kiss him . I always feel reluctant to leave for work on every morning .

His smell makes me wonder . I loves his hugging and hot kiss !

Good morning !

I'm currently down with sore throat and I have no idea WHY . I had 3L of water everyday, didn't take any fried or oily food and yet . . . SHIT !

Somehow, I started to miss my days in YHA . Thinking back, how life could be simple and easy . A very simple life . Work, study and that's it . Anyway, is over . No point pondering about it .

What can you do when you have already regretted of what you did and what you decided ?

Manage to fork out some time to update my blog . LOL !

Is Tuesday ! I'm late today Don't ask me why . Haha ! But Boyf knows why .

Somehow, I feel I'm really too complicated and serious and that's when quarrel occurs . Couldn't control my emotions and feelings, tend to take everything too serious . Like what Boyf always said, take it easy man . I'm trying to and I really mean it .

I don't really know what's going with me actually . Paranoid is what I could say . Anyway, I'm tired to be bother-ed so I shall take everything easily and calm myself down . Cheer up Joanne ! I know you can !

I know I have hurt you . I didn't mean it . I know you are still the best and will be there for me but still I realised you are not the one I'm actually looking for . I know my life could be wonderful if I be with you . I know you will definitely give me the best that you can . At least, you have been doing so for the past one year . But still, you deserve someone better than me . Thanks for everything that you have done for me . I'm grateful to have you with me in the past .

Finished my blog at last .
Simple and clean . LOL !




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