This is the bear which Boyf caught for me in the toy machine . Kaiwaii neh ~

Imma really a complicated girl . I knew I love Boyf deep deep but I choose to deny all my feeling . I choose to against it and make myself so suffering, not only me . Even to Boyf . Is it because I was been hurt before that's why i'm hesitate to move forward and commit ? I really don't know . I only know I forced myself to keep a distance from Boyf though I know I can be more sweet than that . I know I could be able to do more than now but i choose not to . The more I commit, the more I fall into him . Can I really commit in this relationship and stick with him ? I wish I could but I'm afraid he can't manage to . . .

Sighs !