Turn me on with your kiss



Is Friday and the last lesson of my CHRM, I will be having 2 major exam and is over ! HUSH ! Until now, I'm still thinking shall I take the Full Time Diploma and work part time ? Tsktsk, Xian Ming said he will support me on whatever decision that I make . Of course, it won't affect him anyway . LOL !

My advisor, Jeffrey . He said that it would be better if I could clear my debts before taking up the Full Time Diploma . He is right and I'm aware of this also but is not as easy as what we said . I'm trying hard now . Too many debts to be cleared . Shag larh !

Work have been getting more and more busy, I have no time for myself . Also, I'm having stomach cramp . You guys should know why right .

Weekend is approaching but I got no elsewhere to go when Xian Ming is working . Imma so bored to waste my weekend at home and Xian Ming have warned me to stay with him during weekend . Lol !

Off to get started another busy day of mine . Goodbye !

Very sweet horh, *hint*



Is Wednesday, Xian Ming is OFF today but too bad I'm having classes tonight . LOL ! He nag at me since yesterday, asking me what should he do for today . Stay at home and wait for me larh ! I also doing the same when he was working during weekend, right bo ?



He did something sweet today . I left my wallet at home and Daddy bring it over to Xian Ming's house for me . I was so tired and maybe Xian Ming don't want me to be tired so he took the initiative to go down for me . He is such a wonderful Boyfriend, isn't ? Hopefully, he don't do it for action only horh . Haha !

I appreciated that, really ! I'm loving him more and more if he continue to be so sweet kay .

I'm seeking for your permission to be with me, forever .

Good morning !

I've been with Xian Ming these few days, he said he will feel secure when he see me sleeping beside him . He said he the more he see me, the more he can't live without with . Don't know is it true or not, he loves to sweet talk as it is free . LOL !

I love it when he piggy back me . Ohya, he bought me a helmet as our first Valentine Present . But I didn't get anything for him, he knew I'm broke . >< I love it when he is so understanding =)

Also, we will be travelling to Genting next weekend . Though it is just Genting but still, this is our first time and I believe that there will be more places for us to travel to in our future .

I have to admit, from his actions . He is getting to dote me more and more but I don't know would all these last or not . He asked me to control him as he can't control himself . LOL ! Teo Hian Ming, don't regret because I'm going to take your words for that .

Xian Ming, I'm loving you deeper and deeper .

my feeling is like the dead rose

Is Valentine's Day . No special feeling on this particular day . A simple sentence that came out from your mouth could be so hurt to me . Thanks to you, I have realised how deep I actually committed and how serious I was . I will digest what you have told me and will adapt it soon  . No worries, I will overcome it very fast . Don't assume I will be like them . Afterall, love is not everything .

I do believe that memories will be presented down in our brains and cannot be erased, the only thing we can do is to leave it aside and move on . But if you were to allow your past to affect your future then you are not ready to move on yet . Everyone should make an effort to build up your future and not using your new memories to overlaps your old memories . Is hurt when you are bringing your future back to your past .

I guess, we still don't understand each other .



Same place but with a different person . LOL !

Lunar New Year Holiday is over ~! I am so sad about it . Now, I really know how to handle my emotion . So long as I don't take it too serious of his words and I will be fine . I guess I took his words seriously at all times and that's why we always end up quarrelling . So, now whatever he says, I will not COMMENT until one day he can prove me wrong if not I'm not going to take his words seriously ever again .

As for my diploma, I have decided to take up the Full Time Diploma which is going to takes me 12 months to complete it . A shorter path and an excuse for me to take a rest . So, the first priority that I have to do is to SAVE SAVE SAVE !! I need a lot of money when I'm not working . No shopping anymore . Thanks to Jeffrey, he is a very GOOD ADVISOR ! He teach me, we need to give up something in order to make another success . I loves this sentence, is true . I have to know what are my priority and go for it . I shouldn't be so short sighted .

Last but not least, I'm tired !

Nice photo ? Edited by ME . Lol !


Time files and my holiday is coming to an end . I'm now waiting for Boyf at his house . He is off tomorrow ! Yipee yaya ~ !


We had a heart to heart talk yesterday and things has been improving . I like it ! Have been thinking about it recently and I'm really contented with him now . I might not be able to be rich but still Imma happy to be with him and is enough for me .





I'm happily attached with Zhang Xian Ming . Bless me kay ^^

Complicated, Confused .

I started to doubt on myself . I knew what I want and I knew I shouldn't do it as what I think . I gonna let everyone down if i'm going to it in my way . I'm confused, really . Everyone is telling me the same things over the years and I already expected that to happen but should I follow my heart ? Can I trust it one last time and start over again ? I don't know, really don't know . If only I could turn back the time and choose it all over again . Everything that related to it affected me . I knew I should step back but still I got myself involved . What the hell am I doing . I starts to wonder all my decision in my life . A simple life that I wish for is seems to hard to reach . Time will prove one day and I believe that is when I have to make my choice at that time . . .

Is Monday and 2 more days to Lunar New Year . Well, I gave Boyf attitude again yesterday and seriously I don't mean it >< Is it because I felt unsure that's why I'm a bit paranoid ? I guess so .

Early in the morning, Boyf's mummy gave me bread for my breakfast . That's so sweet of her, isn't ? I love her, she is a cute and good mummy =)

Is raining again and I feel so reluctant to work . But I think even it is not raining, I would be feeling the same also .

I'm eyeing on the Samsung Dual Camera, it cost 449 bucks . Shall I or not ? Argh but Jeffrey said this is not my priority . I shouldn't get it . I understand him, as long as it is related to money $$, he is not gonna allow me . But, I know his concern to me =)

I still remember . . .



I force Boyf to hug it as he always throw it far far away -.-

Good morning !
Is Friday ! Ohmy ! Finally god answer my prayers !! ><
Accompanied Adeline Darling, Martin and Boyf to Jian Dao Jian for their supper, I didn't even touch a single bite . xpp Good right =)

Left Boyf this morning and again I felt so reluctant to leave . Lol ! I just simply loves his smell so much =D After I reached my office, I started to drink the milk powder as usual . Afterwhich, I had another cup of plain water but I guess I have drank too much water until I went to the ladies and vomitted -.-'' See, later Boyf sure say I don't know how to take care of myself . Lol !

Boyf is working in the afternoon shift tomorrow but too bad, his Girlf me have to do my nails tomorrow morning thus I can't accompany him till he wake up lerh =/ Anyway, We got plenty of time during LNY .


I can feel we are getting closer and closer but as long as you don't make me angry, I will be sweet and lovely to you . When I look at YOU, I just feel like hugging you tight and kiss you real hard . I feel that I'm getting more and more easy on you . I'm much more easy to coax compare than before . Don't you agree ? Baobei, I love you . Muacks !

This is the bear which Boyf caught for me in the toy machine . Kaiwaii neh ~

Imma really a complicated girl . I knew I love Boyf deep deep but I choose to deny all my feeling . I choose to against it and make myself so suffering, not only me . Even to Boyf . Is it because I was been hurt before that's why i'm hesitate to move forward and commit ? I really don't know . I only know I forced myself to keep a distance from Boyf though I know I can be more sweet than that . I know I could be able to do more than now but i choose not to . The more I commit, the more I fall into him . Can I really commit in this relationship and stick with him ? I wish I could but I'm afraid he can't manage to . . .

Sighs !

Well well well . I'm showing Boyf my attitude again . I don't know why I just loves to talk back to him and loves to play hard with him . I likes the way he coax me, loves it when he hugs me and says I am the one he most love and will hold on me till the end .

Yesterday, he used 10 bucks to catch a bearbear for me . LOL ! Imma happy but he is just too haolian larh . Cannot praise him derh, once you praise him, he will fly up to the sky . Cannot stop praising himself how good he is . LOL ! Superb thick skin .

Three months gone and the fourth is approaching soon . My love has increase out of my control, I just feel happy to see him, smell him and kiss him . I always feel reluctant to leave for work on every morning .

His smell makes me wonder . I loves his hugging and hot kiss !

Good morning !

I'm currently down with sore throat and I have no idea WHY . I had 3L of water everyday, didn't take any fried or oily food and yet . . . SHIT !

Somehow, I started to miss my days in YHA . Thinking back, how life could be simple and easy . A very simple life . Work, study and that's it . Anyway, is over . No point pondering about it .

What can you do when you have already regretted of what you did and what you decided ?

Manage to fork out some time to update my blog . LOL !

Is Tuesday ! I'm late today Don't ask me why . Haha ! But Boyf knows why .

Somehow, I feel I'm really too complicated and serious and that's when quarrel occurs . Couldn't control my emotions and feelings, tend to take everything too serious . Like what Boyf always said, take it easy man . I'm trying to and I really mean it .

I don't really know what's going with me actually . Paranoid is what I could say . Anyway, I'm tired to be bother-ed so I shall take everything easily and calm myself down . Cheer up Joanne ! I know you can !

I know I have hurt you . I didn't mean it . I know you are still the best and will be there for me but still I realised you are not the one I'm actually looking for . I know my life could be wonderful if I be with you . I know you will definitely give me the best that you can . At least, you have been doing so for the past one year . But still, you deserve someone better than me . Thanks for everything that you have done for me . I'm grateful to have you with me in the past .

Finished my blog at last .
Simple and clean . LOL !




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